English Post #11

     While being in college there are many things that you can learn about yourself or things that you pick up along the way. Most of these are skills, they don't have to be handiness skills but they can be like communication, how to properly word an email, just some basic human skills. The top five skills that I wish to gain are:

• How to keep my life balanced- I have realized that I never really leave time for myself and its really biting me in the ass when it comes to my mental health because there is three-four weeks left and I have absolutely no motivation for softball and school work.

• How to be prepared for the unexpected- When it comes to relationships or anything life tries to throw at me I'm normally not the best prepared that I can be. I will be dead set on one thing and then when a wrench gets thrown into it it takes me a while to get over/come back.

• How not to read into peoples emotions- This honestly goes in hand with my mental health because I read into peoples emotions or how they say things and I then feel like I did something wrong. I need to learn to stop that and especially being in the professional setting.

• Learn to love being alone- I know that this sounds weird but hear me out. I was raised as an only child so I've been alone my whole life, but I always craved for attention or to be with people. But now I like my alone time and the more that I practice it the more I can begin to love it. Learning to love being alone doesn't mean that I don't like people-far from it. It means that I am able to be comfortable by myself because honestly the only person in this world that cares about you the most, is yourself. 

• Embrace who you are- This is the last skill for me because I honestly feel like I've never truly embraced who I am as a person. I always do what others want me to do and its exhausting. I need to worry about me and just be the person that I was born to be. All jokes aside, I really wasn't supposed to be on this earth. My mother had a very little chance of having a child and she was on birth control, but god gave her me. I am a walking miracle and I need to be the person that god created.

    I know I never really talk about religion because I've never really been raised in a church because of softball. One final thing that I hope to gain while being at college is a relationship with God. Ive gone through a lot this past semester and he's the only person that I count on. Ive never been one to pray but now its before every game and when I feel that its the most needed. Sorry to get religious but this is the final thing that I NEED to learn while at college.